I wrote a while back about my “bucket list”. Number 1 on it was to start a blog and post weekly. I did that. And I am really enjoying it. Yeah for me!
Up until this last week the blog was private. As I wrote in that bucket list post, I was afraid of failure and that was why, until that post, I hadn’t voiced some of my dreams to anyone (even, really, myself). Keeping the blog private was a way for me to control the goal. I mean, how harsh would my two readers be (Hi, Mom and Dad!)? I really didn’t even tell my closest friends about it until recently. I didn’t want anyone to judge me or what I wrote.
I am a realistic person. I understand that even if I made this blog public, I would still probably only have about, oh, 2 loyal readers. But I also understand that once something is presented to the internet it is out there forever, even if no one cares.
That being said, thanks to my husband, I realized that in keeping the blog private I wasn’t really achieving the original intent of my blogging goal of putting myself out there. Sure, I wouldn’t be judged. But I was also missing out on both giving and getting a lot of potential support. And that is a shame. We’re all in this together, right?
A month or so ago I caught a bit of a 2012 interview of Lena Dunham by Terry Gross on NPR. In it Ms. Dunham talks about having so much of her work out there on the internet. She says:
I’ve sort of just made the decision to be OK with the fact that I’m not going to love everything that I put out into the world, and I kind of go, well, maybe, my hope is oh maybe it’ll sometime be helpful for another young artist to sort of see my development and see the way that it – that I sort of lived out loud a little bit.
I guess that’s my hope too.
I am always pushing my kids to take risks and to step outside their comfort zones. As a parent and role model, shouldn’t I do the same?
And so, finally, at Joe’s urging, I literally hit the button (ok, I clicked it). And there it is: a PUBLIC blog. I am excited. I am nervous. I am fearful. Please be kind, internet!
Joe called me the next morning to let me know that I had practically “blown up” the internet with my thoughts!! What I mean by that is, I had my first non-friend, non-parent related “like”. And it made my day.
Thanks for the support , IGameMom!